This morning I could really feel the effects of the past week of cleaning and unpacking every waking minute. I took Friday off just to recuperate from my musical, and also to rest up for Saturday, which was "cleaning the rental house day" and the day of Cole's sleepover.
However, I had already promised myself that we would go to church no matter what! Last week, I knew I should go, and Mom told me if I went I would feel so much better, but I let my physical exhaustion trump my spiritual exhaustion and stayed in my yoga pants at home. I regretted it all day!! So, today,we got the sleepover guests out around ten a.m. and headed to Clifton Road Baptist Church, where we had visited two weeks ago.
What a blessing it was! The pastor preached on worrying (the same topic as the last time we visited! hmmm...) and it was riveting, moving, and humorous. I love this man's style of preaching, but I also feel like he is truly filled with The Word when he is speaking from that pulpit. God knew I was there today, and God knew I was worrying about something that is going on. God knows I struggle with fear over protecting my children and their interests, and that when I entered that sanctuary today, it was with a troubled and worried heart.
I heard the pastor say to stop saying you trust God, and then trying to figure it all out on your own, running around trying to do what you think is best. I have to be still and let Him be God, and let Him do what He will do.
I am so glad I got up this morning and went to church! I know He is still looking out for me! I intend to stop trying to run this thing, and let God do what He needs to do!! Get out of the way, April!!
My blessings are so many! I have parents, cousins, grandparents, aunts, and uncles who love me and my children. I have a job that allows me to spend the maximum amount of time with my family and manages to challenge me and my abilities. I have freedom! I have the freedom to make choices, make changes, and make others happy. I have healthy, intelligent, good-hearted children who amaze me with their resilience and courage.
I have a God who blesses me and forgives all of my nonsense.
I have a husband who is the best friend anyone could ever hope for, who jumped head-first into a difficult and unfamiliar scene and has excelled at every single task as the head of this family. He had no rules, no guide book, just good instincts and faith. Nowhere on Earth could there be a more giving, braver, or more selfless man.
I am covered in blessings. You are one of them! I love you!